Here is the deepest secret nobody knows.

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)


One of the best poems of all time.

Love Letters

Really, if you haven't read this book, read it. If you can truly appreciate it, that is. It is amazing to read through the incredibly romantic words that people express through these letters. Me? I'm a hopeless romantic. Poetry, love songs, "chick-flicks", romantic comedies, lifetime movies-they all get to me. I'm not ashamed to admit it! That's why I think my standards are so high for romantic relationships. And why I have decided to wait until college for my first real one. High school "relationships" are ridiculous to me. There are exceptions to every rule, but for the most part, they are just a joke. I can't wait until God finally puts that one person in my life. That person that I just might get a love letter from that will make me swoon.
Speaking of waiting until college...
the college search trudges on. I might even be visiting DBU very soon! I am pretty much extremely stoked about that. Michelle and I talk endlessly about it in English and even began a pro and con list. The only real con being that we can only go home for holidays. But we'll see how it goes and hopefully I can make my decision very soon.

I mean, seriously. I'm so tired! And yet I do nothing to help me get back in a normal sleep pattern. I stay up until all hours of the night doing unimportant things. Anyways, my point is that I am too tired write a blog that is somewhat interesting right now. I definitely will later.

New Beginnings.

What an unoriginal title.

2009. Two-Thousand and Nine. I can't believe my graduation year is finally here. I can tell it is going to be a great one. I feel better and better about the person I am becoming. FINALLY. As for this blog, I will definitely be keeping up with it more regularly because I'm tired of saying I will write in a blog and then I lose interest. I find expressing myself through the written word is a lot more liberating/satisfying/etc. than that of saying things aloud. People can come to their own conclusions and I can just keep on keeping on without feeling the least bit self conscious.
Anyways. As for me, a lot has changed since I last wrote in this blog. I have become a senior. I have matured GREATLY. The biggest conclusion I have come to in the past few months is that apart from a select few others, everyone in my school is fake. AND THEY DISPLAY IT SO BLATANTLY! It makes me want to get out of this town so badly. But I have another 6 months and 6 days until graduation, so I will make the best with what I have to work with.
I have been accepted to my first university! Dallas Baptist University to be exact. I'm feeling really good about this school, but am still praying that I end up where God wants me to be, because I truly strive to be in the place that He wants me to be the most.
I already feel better having written this much. Sadly, it is 11:37 and I desperately need to get back into a normal human's sleep pattern so I shall leave it at that for now. But expect more soon!