Spend a lazy Sunday with me.

So the past few days have been pretty eventful. There was a stressful misunderstanding that knocked me down physically for a couple days. I guess they really weren't lying when they said stress isn't good for people recovering with mono. But whatever, at least that's over. I need to hurry up and buy tickets for SanFran! But anyways. So yesterday I was talking with a friend of mine(who shall remain anonymous even though I'm sure hardly anyone reads this) and he was saying how much he hated his life and how he hasn't been happy for 10 years, so on and so forth. It just saddened me to see someone who I thought was so full of life and happy all the time be so down. Talking about how he felt like purposely flipping his car without his seatbelt on sometimes. I talked to him for a while and calmed him down thankfully. But the thing that bothers me the most is that people are complete douchebags to this person for no good reason. It just made me so angry. On another note, one more week at home and then I'm back in action! Thank God. Oh, and I really dont like Daylight Savings Time.!

Honestly.

I heard the word college used more times than I would like to hear today. But it WAS a good day. Went to second period AP English...and got a warm reception! haha even in the parking lot too. But it was fun being in English again...i forgot how much i loved it. But anyways, after that i went to see mrs hardy. (mrs? ms? i never know which it is) and basically set up a wayy easy schedule for the rest of this year, which is sooo relieving! Then went home because i was POOPED! Seriously. Then had a serious talk about SanFran. Man I hope that happens...I really need it. But anyways, i'll be going back to school on friday just for english again. But it's a start...right? Right.

Dreams.

Ok, I don't know about you, but I love when I have really good dreams. Lately I have been having dreams every time I fall asleep. Even for naps or whatever. Anyways. I was having a reallyyyy good dream. One of those that you dont want to end, you know? And no I'm not talking about anything dirty you pervs. But I'm having this dream while taking an unplanned nap and all of a sudden, at the very momentous climax of my dream, I'm awakened by a member of my family, (ahemmmeaelfa alisha ahemmm) who comes in my room for God knows what reason. I got up, shut my door, and found myself jumping back in bed to try and continue with this dreamy movie going through my mind. Only to find I can't go back to sleep. I was very disappointed. Now I'm not going to describe this dream to you but the leading male in it was someone from school and a good friend of mine who I would not have thought would be in that position. hahaha but I am sad i didnt get to see what happened next.

Today.

Was better. Kind of. I went to school! But at 2:45 for a meeting with a teacher. haha. Saw like half of my teachers who all said "when are you coming back?!!"...especially coach haha. Buttt the whole academic thing is kind of overwhelming and crazy right now so its stressing me out. but on a lighter note I talked to my dad about how I have been in this house 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, for 7 weeks and how I HAVE to get out. and he agreed. So I get to go out this weekend! Not like crazy, but still its a start for sure. Oh, and I'm also cheered up because a bunch of new clothes and my new books came in the mail. So today had its share of pros and cons.

So here's my question.
when you're going through a rough time and you need someone to talk to, but the person you want to talk to is really really really happy, how are you supposed to dump the weight of your problem onto their happiness? And how do you even know they'll truly care?
My sense of trust is really screwed up.

going,

stir-cra·zy /ˈstɜrˌkreɪzi/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[stur-krey-zee] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –adjective Slang.

1.	Informal. restless or frantic because of confinement, routine, etc.: I was stir-crazy after just two months of keeping house.

2.	mentally ill because of long imprisonment.

I'd say that's about right.

Good news.

My mom's test results came back and the cancer hasn't spread to any major organs.
Thank the Lord. What a serious relief.